Healing Emotion Traps

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Have you ever been stuck, like really stuck? Replaying a scene of an argument or breakup over and over again in your mind? These are emotional traps that form when we are children as a way to keep us from understanding the power within. I have wasted so many hours stuck in the same story for much of life. One of my story stuckness revolved around shame, my personal theme: Body-shaming.

Emotion Traps Discovered

As a young adult, I hit a point when I was reading my journals, reviewing my life, when I realized so much of it focused on shame of my weight and body size. I suddenly decided I didn’t want to focus on that anymore, I wanted to let go of the anguish I felt thinking about it. Like a switch flipped, I moved on to focus on other things. There was so much more to life now that that theme was gone from my storyline. I cleared part of the emotional trap of body shame. This was the beginning of my understanding of Emotion Traps.

This didn’t mean that I was immune to shame, no it still hurt when I heard fat shaming and other body judgements. I took that hurt and judged others but in reverse. What helped tremendously was the day I realized that some skinny people wished they could gain curves. I stopped reverse body shaming in that moment. A softening occurred in my heart as I learned there was no way to know what emotional traps surrounded others. This opened the door to compassion and curiosity about where others experienced shame and their own emotional stuckness.

With Reiki practice in my life, I began to notice areas of dense energy tended to be around the hips and shoulders way out in the energy field of each client. They would have certain hot spots near the different chakras where my hands would light up which appeared to tie in to different emotions. My first Biofield Tuning Session I received, revealed a tremendous amount of stuck shame from my childhood. This release gave me great insight into the potential for healing using Sound and Reiki to help move out these areas of dense energy storage, these Emotion Traps.

Experimenting with Clearing Emotion Traps

From Eileen McKusik’s Biofield Tuning Course

With Biofield Tuning training, I learned a map for these stuck emotions. Incorporating this map with both Reiki and Biofield Tuning helping clients identify and release the stuck emotions. Using Reiki, Chanting, Tuning Forks, these areas would clear and release physical body pain or heaviness. Clients would experience relief from old injuries, stuckness, and digestive trouble. Emotion Traps are the best name for these areas. Emotion Traps helps me better understand what, why, and how I keep seeing this pattern.

Understanding more with practice, I found that helping clients to participate in the release allows for a thorough healing that lasts longer. Using Holy Fire Reiki has helped as the energy has such a flame-like quality, dense energy simply melts away. I also ask clients questions about the size and shape of the dense energy. When they visualize it, they are able to more thoroughly let it go. We are each our own best healer I remember over and over again.

Merkabah Pattern Revealed By My College Roommate

Recently, I became super focused on these larger pockets of dense energy further out in the field. I keep finding them in the areas about 5 feet from the shoulder & hip on the right-divine masculine energy and left side- divine feminine. With meditation I asked for more guidance regarding these areas. What do they represent and how do I help clients release these more thoroughly?

Using Reiki, chanting, toning, and tuning forks to activate and clear these dense energy areas, I found clients were experiencing exponential clearing, lightening, and healing. This technique was repeatable, but I wasn’t quite sure exactly what I was doing until I saw a Biofield Tuning course on Digesting Emotions. Eileen called these dense areas Emotion Traps. What a perfect name. It is not my fault that I get stuck in certain emotions over and over again. My responsibility is to clear these areas from myself. From this place of growth i will teach others. My focus shifted to reminding everyone how to digest their emotions with kindness and energy for optimal health. I felt I was close to the target but still missing a part of the picture.

My path led me to visit with my friend Gretchen in Bellingham Washington. We met back before college on orientation to Young Harris College and decided to be roommates. Gretchen taught me so much about deep feeling and intuition. My left brain wasn’t fully ready to embrace all she was bringing into my awareness, but the door was opened. This visit she showed me her paintings about awakening and spiritual portals and healing. I saw clearly the pattern that I was working in my clients in one she painted with the merkabah in 3 dimensions. She had some paintings that accurately showed energy patterns of healing I see during sessions. This unlocked more understanding.

Sacred Geometry with Reiki Repair Aura

My eyelids have been flaring up with allergic dermatitis and eczema over the last several years, but none as bad as this year. Gretchen has been tending to her own organic farm and created her own skincare line. She gave me some soap and facial oil to help my skin. Her facial oil has been the only thing that gives my skin lasting moisture all day without any irritation. Check out her skincare here. So here we are 25 years later finally having a complete alignment despite living on opposite side of the country with a kids and careers in between.

Image by Amel Segré from Pixabay

Once I returned home I researched the merkabah. I recognized how the form fit over a person and could help establish a structure for their aura to stop collapsing. Activating the points on the merkabah at the emotion trap areas creates a flow structure, like a crystalline grid within our aura. Emotions no longer trap dense energy and accumulate stuckness that shrink the aura and keep physical bodies from healing. I now work these points on myself and my eyelids clear up. I’m so grateful for leaning in to synchronicities.

This has been a powerful pattern to work towards the end of the session once the body stress is cleared. The energy link up is guided by their higher self and my higher self at the highest frequency healing that is able to flow through. This discovery is so exciting! It’s showing up in several healing modalities at once, so I know that NOW is the time. Sacred Geometry applied to Reiki and Sound Healing is the way to help maintain a wide aura that is flowing continuously. This flow is the KEY!

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The Power of Negativity

Let’s embrace negativity for a minute. That’s right, stare right at it and dig in a little deeper. There’s so much out there about being positive that I got swept up in eradicating negativity. Staying in the flow with Reiki, I erroneously thought I had to push away all negative thoughts, did you?

For a while, I made it my personal job to strap on my backpack of positivity spray and blast out all the negativity out from myself and others to keep everything shiny and clean. Rather than reach my goal of becoming a beacon of positivity, I found myself hyperfocused on exterminating any negativity or sadness. Rather than sitting with my anger, I pushed it away. My poor friends and family as I passionately preached about storm clouds and sunshine, while ignoring my own full-spectrum of emotions. For years I focused on fighting anger and rejecting outbursts from anyone.

Disinfecting Earth view- what a shift as I now embrace all challenges. Image thanks  Ajay kumar Singh from Pixabay 

My determination to “get rid of negativity” became judgmental in my push for perfection. Once I made time to pause, as the stress of COVID increased, I realized there was no way to push through these heavy emotions. So I learned to pause in that moment and instead allow myself to become the observer. I learned to sit with it and instead watch the flow of thoughts and emotions in order to learn what was underneath. In the darker depths of the flow.

Reiki Principals to the Rescue

In this forced quiet, where I could no longer talk about staying in playfulness without having my head bit off, I learned the power of silence. I came back to the Reiki Principle- be kind to all living things. To apply this I have to forgive myself for being angry and engaging in conflict. I was hurting, just in a different way from those around me. I needed to sit in my waves of sadness, anger, and frustration, alone and find the calm floating on the waves.

There’s a parable that resonates with me which tells of a young boy and his grandfather. The young boy is struggling with dark impulses. His grandfather tells him that inside each person is a wolf of light and a wolf of dark. The one that wins is the one that the young boy chose to feed. There was an Aha- moment. He didn’t say, kill the wolf of the dark” did he? He said choose which one you feed. 

We all have the light and dark within us. The key is to embrace them both and then chose which to focus on…

My conflicts were tests for me to apply my “wisdom” and be compassionate. So compassion is what I gave myself, and in allowing myself to pause, I found grace and peace. I could not rush myself or anyone else to hurry through their suffering. I could not rush myself or anyone to see that they were in charge of their experience. I could not rush myself or anyone to see that we all have the wisdom within us when we make time to get quiet. I had to simply get quiet, find my inner calm, and wait out the storm.

Embracing Conflict

As I dove deeper into my Reiki practice, I learned it’s actually about softening and embracing ALL emotions. Feelings are simply indicators of different levels of stress and emotional holding. With energy healing work I learned it’s not the power of positivity but rather the power of love that heals. So dig into negativity…sit with it… deep belly breath and exhale… why am I feeling this way? Then just wait for answer to come… That is the key.

Here’s another Reiki principal:

Be honest and clear. I must learn to face every part of the person in the mirror with love. That’s the most important thing. I no longer reject my negativity, it’s simply my clue to pause, breathe, and go outside to look up at the beauty. Go enjoy the trees, birds, and hum of nature. Go out and realign my energy flow. When I get frustrated or irritated, that’s my stress valve needing a release and nothing more… Being angry, sad, frustrated, resentful does not mean have I have less value, it simply means I need to pause and release, reconnect, and restore my flow.

Energy Balancing with Reiki and Breath-work

By embracing ALL emotions, I am now being honest. I no longer try to censor my Bad Mood. Instead, I see her and pause, and then I ask myself how I am hurting. Negativity has become my inner barometer of unintentionally allowing stress to build and boil into a storm. It’s my clue to go outside and ground with a reiki meditation. I breathe deep into my belly as I expand my awareness up and out , then exhale while releasing down into the Earth. All my stress can then flow out into the Earth and be recycled. I’m so grateful to my reiki practice to know how that feels.

credit Image by Gordon Johnson from Pixabay

Learning to get centered and flush out the energetic core of your being is powerful! If you too are ready to practice Self-Mastery with guided meditations or Holy Fire Reiki, reach out. I offer group sessions and private sessions for you to tap into your inner quiet and find your connection to wisdom. Book Now.

Reiki and Plants

Recently the medicine of plants have been calling to me so I have been working with the plants in my yard using reiki. I keep having dreams where I “know” which plants are healing and which plants are nourishing. This deep feeling that we all need to restore our intuitive connection with the plants in our own yard and region is strong.

Just a few years ago I discovered the benefits of essential oils and kept into ordering and studying and learning all that I could. While the benefits are clear and based on the chemicals in the plants, I kept feeling it was so wasteful. 1,000 mandarin to make the mandarin oil I was using. How much sandalwood and frankincense? How could this be sustainable if we want everyone to use plants as medicine? The more I would study the more I learned about unsustainable practices, over harvesting, and companies buying foreign lands and only hiring locals to work the land as employees, not supporting their independence with allowing land ownership. There had to be a better way to heal with plants, I just knew it in my bones.


Doterra supports local owned plants grown and harvested and teach essential oil processing to help support independent families in other countries.

After my deep year long dive into essential oils, I visited my college roommate on her organic farm north of Seattle. She had journeyed deep into shamanism and spirit medicine after we had parted ways. She gave her book on Plant Shamanism and more. That book had such wisdom, talking about the importance of finding the medicine of the plants living near me. Plants growing around me would learn what nutrients I needed and fill that need. I just needed to be spending time with them and talking to them. The plants could read my energy field and see what to make to help nourish me on every level. What an amazing thought!

Since then, I have been working to grow as many herbal medicinal plants as possible. The blue berries are so important but adding in herbs to every meal has provided subtle shifts. I am learning to use stinging nettles, plantain, basil, pineapple sage, kitchen sage, lemon balm, rosemary, oregano, catnip, and thyme in so many ways. I have also discovered that even Sweet Gum trees have anti-viral properties when harvesting green sweet gum balls and making a tincture from them. Chickweed and henbit even have good vitamins to help us. I am so excited to be learning about the medicine in my own backyard. I try to use something from my yard in every meal and even in my water.

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By doing reiki on each plant that’s growing in my yard, I learn what the plant needs to thrive, and I begin to notice what is unbalanced. Perhaps some mulch to maintain the moisture, maybe some weeding to clear the ground, maybe trimming back to help fresh growth emerge, and maybe some compost for nutrients. the reiki also helps the plants to root better and thrive. It’s been an amazing journey to connect with and learn how these amazing plants are here to help us and communicate. I am even learning which weeds are tasty as they are with just a little rinse. They let me know the importance of adding a little to all my food, rather than just adding to one dish once in a while. My yard is full of native salad greens and I even found some mustard greens. What a discovery!

Take time to connect with the food growing in your own yard. Try using Reiki to see what you notice! Don’t know Reiki yet? Sign up for my classes.

Expanding Reiki Energy-work with Quantum Healing.

Have you ever wondered about this “energy” that people talk about? Have you watching Masked Singer and felt the most powerful performer give you goose bumps? Have you watched Dancing with the Stars and felt inspired watching? This is energy moving through them into you. These talented individuals are filled with love while doing these activities, and we feel it as observers.

This energy of love has a very powerful frequency, and other beings match it through entrainment. This process is similar to playing a piano and the sound wave causing the string on a guitar across the room to vibrate. The same thing happens with two grandfather clocks on two separate sides of the rooms, eventually they match the swing of the pendulum to each other.

Since we are made up of mostly water and we all have an electromagnetic field that radiates a frequency when we are happy, energized, or filled with love and excitement, it only makes sense that we can help each other using frequencies to heal our bodies. The thing about the electromagnetic fields though, is that is behaves like plasma (see Biofield tuning). What else behaves like a plasma?

Fire.

Fire dances and twists, turns and burns through most things as the fire grows stronger. Oxygen feeds the fire. This is how energy works in the body. With breathwork, energy moves quickly and more powerfully burning off blocks from emotional holding. Holding any emotion causes a block or a dam to stop the energy and stagnate within that area. This lead to a build up of lactic acid and carbon monoxide over time. This causes soreness, inflammation, and over time disease. With practice, one can learn to be aware of this energy field and help it grow strong and burn off any blocks and allow for good flow and prevent disease. All energy modalities involve some sort of movement of life energy, whether through breath work and movement in Thai Chi or Chi Gong, or having someone else channel high frequency energy to entrain the recipient through Reiki, Healing Touch, or Quantum Healing. Quantum healing is different because it combines the energy work like Reiki and Healing Touch with breath-work.

This amps up the frequency by Quantum leaps into a whole new realm of potential for healing. Every client has felt the energy almost immediately. To me it feels like a warm hug and then starts to move through the body in waves. I have witnessed powerful release of old injuries, traumas, and old ways of thinking over these last few weeks. It’s been really beautiful to watch clients relax deeply and allow their body’s to heal at a whole different level.

If you are ready to take your healing to a new level, reach out and try Quantum Healing! I am super excited to bring this new modality to my clients as I felt it provide a deeper level of reconnecting each one of us to our healing potential. There is powerful healing energy in everything around us and this really helps to provide that reconnection that we have all lost somewhere along the way.

If you are new to energy work, please reach out and book a session. Your body can heal, it just needs to reconnect and remember what that feels like!
I love working with all ages, children and adolescents can really benefit from this work, as do animals and plants. Reach out if you have a loved one who seems disconnected lately. This Quantum Healing can powerfully reconnect them. Book now.

Reiki For Healing

Above all else, being kind is the best expression of love. Healing requires an abundance of love and compassion The more I teach Reiki classes, the more I feel it to my core. Reiki Principles are a simple and clear guide to love.

Just for today, do not anger. The energy of anger is powerful and spins fast like a fan. Unfortunately, when that fan is spinning we have no control and everyone in its path gets hurt. The key is to recognize anger and pause, pull the cord to the power source and go for a walk. Allow the fan to slow down and look at what hurt feelings powered it up in the first place. Tend to the hurt feelings with kindness. Love the opportunity to care for the hurt and heal this old wound.
Gratitude fills me with the opportunity to heal this in the moment to moment. I spent years running around trying to have a house clean enough, my business organized enough, my social media posts seen enough to grow my business. When I sat a listened to what was hurting, I found it was my spirit. It was time for me to be sure to play and do things I enjoyed. It was time to put me first. I had all my responsibilities handled and now it was time to focus on having fun.
Just for today, do not worry. Worrying takes you out of the present. The key to healthy living is staying in one’s body and mind in the minute to minute. I knew this intellectually, but it took me a long time to walk in the present moment. The more I learned to focus on inhabiting my body and treating it with kindness and care, in how I sat, stood, and held myself, the more present I became. I started to recognize how out of alignment I was when I worried, my hips tilted forward and then my whole spine and neck was out of whack. The importance of releasing worry to release my body was never more clear.

Just for for today, work honestly. This one is so important to unravel. I try hard to be honest to everyone, but what I realized is I wasn’t being honest to myself. Some days I didn’t want to be super helpful, creative, resourceful, and persistent. Some days I just wanted to rest. And once I realized how to recognize this, I realized this was me learning to be honest with myself. No one is perfect, and some days I get to lie low and be restful work slowly, to allow kindness to flow back through me. Allowing myself to process and understand my feelings was powerful. Giving myself space to not work at maximum efficiency gave me room to allow others to do the same.
Be grateful for your many blessings. Taking time every day to go through things for which I can be grateful helps me to start off on the right foot. This practice helps to switch gears and be thankful. Gratitude is essential for healing resentment. I needed this as I learned how to be kind to myself. Resentments were melting away and this focus on gratitude helped me to push that old dialogue and pattern out of the way.
Be kind to all living things. We loop back around to the most important thing. By being kind to another, that gives them permission to soften the heart and unwind their own inner dialogue. Being kind to myself, is equally important because it gives other permission to do the same. By being kind to myself, I have room in my heart, mind, and body, to extend grace to others. These principles are such an important key to healthy living. Reiki practice keeps me unwinding and unlinking, to be a better channel of unconditional love.

Into the Wilderness

With all the shocking headlines, wild facebook posts, and intense twitter videos, I have felt the need to escape into the wilderness to breathe and find release. I am blessed with an amazing forest around both my home and my office so I am sure to give myself frequent break basking in the beauty of the outdoors. This has also made me wonder whatever happened to running wild. Do you remember running wild?

I remember running wild. I loved running with my friend and her dog in the woods. There was so much freedom and joy in just leaping over creeks, logs, and jumping down onto soft sandy land along side. We flew through the woods every time we played and that was the most free I felt. I was such a worrier as a kid. I worried what others thought of me for a long, long time. We moved around so much when I was little, but I felt at home with her as we ran the paths of the forest behind her home. Once I was old enough, I walked to her house to visit and explore the magic of the forest even though we were supposed to be too old for that kind of thing.

As I grew older I found myself feeling more and more out of place. Our friendship slowly dissolved over the years as we matured differently and her interests in boys separated us from adventure time. But the feeling of being wild I never forgot.

When I began to tour colleges, I knew I was home as we drove up to Young harris. The air began to smell different as we climbed the mountain in our car. Once I saw the water dripping down the mossy rocks of the cliff, I rolled down the windows to feel the wild chill in the air and the sweet smell of clean air filled my lungs and woke up a part of me. The wildness began to coarse through my veins and the longing began.

anonymous young woman sitting on floor in ardha padmasana position near esoteric objects used for meditation

One of my classmates helped me to manage stress beyond sitting in the trees, watching the night sky, or hiking in the forest. She talked with me about meditation and Reiki. With breathwork I learned to clear my mind and connect with the sense of home no matter where I was.

My interest was peeked with her stories about her mothers friends who learned to heal with their hands. I knew I had to learn how to do this as it felt wild and natural. Healing with meditation and touch seemed magical and mystical and somewhat behind the veil of mystery,… it called to me but would be another 7 years before I answered the call.

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I found myself at the crucial moment after graduation wondering how I could begin to train as a teacher of healing arts. I knew I didn’t want to be a doctor as pharmaceuticals were their course of study. At a music show I ran into a high school art friend. we began talking and the mysterious ways of the universe lead us around to reiki, and of coarse she was a teacher. I learned to channel the wild energy of love and feeling home.

And here we are years later and I am teaching my own Reiki classes. I love opening the door for people to explore their own healing energy body. With awareness and connection they all begin on their path to healing themselves. The amazing thing about learning energy work and specifically reiki, is that you never forget or lose the ability to channel healing energy. The key is to trust and release, and let it flow. Reach out if you are interested in learning Reiki or even acupressure or tuning fork therapy for energy balancing. There’s so much to learn about how to heal. Why wait? Reach out, my door is open, for group lessons, private lessons, apprenticeships, and sessions. Relearn how to run wild.

Other Ways Energy Medicine Can Help You Reclaim Your Power

Powerful force in the fires of passion

You know how angry some people can make you feel? They seem to know exactly how to push your buttons with laser focus and precision. They can hone right in on things that make you rage and fire up in just a few words? Typically the people will be your siblings, lover, spouse, children, or best friend. They know what can really get you boiling and how to pull your strings. Pause just a second. Think about that saying,…they are literally pulling your strings.

What is helpful to realize, is when you are fiery mad and very passionate, your blood pressure gets super high, your adrenaline pumps through your body, and your heart beats super fast getting you ready for a fight. If you don’t run and burn off that adrenaline, then your body is stuck trying to manage the effects of all this fuel being amped up to power you through the fight. Your subtle energy body is tucked up into your center, typically in the solar plexus chakra. That person is literally pulling your strings, pushing your buttons, and controlling you, and you are letting them.

How do I know this? Because I was raised by Mr. Road-Rage himself. Oh yes, I would drive around completely offended that someone hit their brakes, flipped me off, cut me off, or made a face at me. My father tail-gated terribly and was the most aggressive driver, and I hated it. I finally found my voice at 18 and told him to pull over and let me walk the 2 hours home because I did not want to die today. Then guess what? I did that same exact thing…

Everyone on the road had power over me. The day I was a passenger and made a face at someone who was all ragey over us pulling into the center lane at an intersection when she was in the blind spot and trying to pull into the same lane, was the day I realized I needed to heal. She pulled a gun on us and chased us all over. I realized then that I needed to never get angry at another driver, never react with anger, and certainly never make a face . I could have gotten my friends killed as this woman let her anger drive her into rage and chase us through Atlanta. We finally escaped by pulling onto I-20 and racing off.

This was a huge turning point for me. No matter how bad I thought I had it fighting with traffic, there was certainly others who were far more fed up and at the edge of sanity. And they had a car and possibly a gun. This also changed the way I looked at my life. I could breathe, and calm down, and not take things personally and no longer be part of the problem. Who knows what someone was going through-I needed to show kindness. Reiki taught me this every time I practiced.

Overtime I learned to apply filter that to work relationships, patients, and finally family. With Reiki practice, I began to understands how much I hurt myself by staying angry or even allowing myself to get there. It was a slow transformation to make it all the way back to family, but it has changed my life. I no longer take anyone’s behavior or mood personally. I finally have been able to hang out with my father and not take his anger personally and instead ask him how he is hurting. This has helped him to realized how he is standing hurts his back or his feet and to take better care of himself in the moment. It took me years to get there, but it changed everything about our relationship. The last key to untangle my power from my motional family ties was Biofield Tuning. It literally tuned up my energy so I no longer had these walls up, so that I was no longer holding.

In these pandemic times of fear and isolation, this has helped me tremendously to navigate the dicey waters of social media. I do not take anyone’s comments personally, most of the time. In the beginning of the pandemic, I worked hard on social media to try and open up discussion and engage in intelligent debate. But things over time devolved into simply angry people who are hurting and everyone else being wrong. It has been very upsetting. I am learning discernment. There’s times to simply move past the discourse and say nothing. These times are tough but the most unifying, universal truth is love. I return to Reiki to rebalance myself along with chanting. So powerful good.

We all need to touch-base and connect with friends and family and reaffirm that we love each other. It’s super important to not allow emotions, politics, anger to divide us. Instead, when you start to notice your are beginning to feel angry, pause and instead consider it is your souls way of saying it is time to play. Enough is enough. No more work. Time to go play.

If you are having trouble making time for play, likely you need a tune-up. Reiki with Sound Therapy and/or Biofield Tuning may be just what you need. Call or email me to set up your session today. 706-207-4253 or healingwithangels77@gmail.com